In an Egg Shell

2006-05-15T19:23:00.000+08:00

UNDER CONSTRUCTION

shit happens

2006-04-25T08:17:00.000+08:00

I was about to sleep last night when this girl call me up. She was a online gamer friend of my brother. I asked her if she was looking for my brother but she told me that I was the one she wanted to talk to. So i obliged.

She asked a lot of question. It was like an interview. Trying to know me.. I kept answering her questions until she told me that she need my help. I asked help on what. Then she told me if i was LIBERATED.. All of a sudden naughty thought ran thru my mind... This girl wanted to DO it on the phone... My mind just went for sleepy to caffeine / sugar injected little kid! Blood started rushing my brain..I just prevented myself from fainting..

She sounds nice. And from her friendster account (if its really her) she looks nice. But i really don't know if i should continue this...

Updated thoughts

2006-04-07T23:12:00.000+08:00

Update ko lang ang walang kwentang blog ko

Sobrang init... feel ko na ang summer!
Walang kwenta ang summer ko dahil.. HINDI PA AKO GRADUATE!!
Walang kwenta ang summer ko dahil.. SOBRANG PAHIRAP ANG DINADANAS KO!!!
May friend ako down sa buhay niya.. d ko alam kung papano papasayahin..
Sana makahanap na talaga ako ng work after holy week!
24 days and i'm a freaking year older!
ANG TABA KO PA RIN!

from gaget

2006-03-29T22:37:00.000+08:00

dahil sa tinatamad ako magpost.. gayahin ko na lang si gaget.. gawa din ako random thoughts!

hangang friday pa ako sa OJT (March 31, 2006)
tinatamad na ako.. (as always naman)
sobrang init d2 sa pinas (wishing i was somewhere else)
kelan kaya ako makakapagbilyar (wish ko lang talaga)
kelan kaya ako papayat (isa pang pangarap na mahirap matupad)
sana may work na ako (eto deperately need one)
d ako nakapagbasketball today (bakit ba kasi d ako pwdeng umalis ng bahay!)
kelan ko kaya saya ulet makikita (miss ko ung wala d2...)
san ba patutungo ang buhay ko (OO NGA SAN BA!!)

sad / happy day

2006-03-21T23:53:00.000+08:00

what an interview... feeling ko talga babagsak ako dun.. grabe.. pero maganda ang working environment... kahit na medyo maliit lang ung company.. masaya naman mga pipol...

after that went with Allan, Wayne, Dada, Margaret, Jhen and Emily to 90 Proof.. grabe libre un.. wala kc akong pera talga nung araw na un.. kaya umasa sa iba.. bawi na lang ako sa kanila next time.. hay.. aalis na c ems... sayang.. hay.. ganon talaga buhay.. magkikita sana kami ulet..

PORNSTAR NAME

2006-03-16T20:24:00.000+08:00

Your Porn Star Name Is...

Rod Steel

What's" Your Porn Star Name?

Will I Know?

2006-03-14T23:20:00.000+08:00

Been thinking a lot lately. Tama ba ung ginagawa ko? Tama ba na ilagay ko sa alanganin ang sarili ko? D ko alam kung dapat bang magkaganito ako.. Wish i could know..

HOPING SOMEONE I KNOW COULD READ THIS..

the first time i saw you... d kita pinansin.. parang wala lang.. normal na tao sa paligid ko.. nakausap, nakakilala.. dun ko naisip na sarap pala ng may kaibigan tulad mo.. nakipagtawanan... kaipagkulitan.. napakasaya.. pero bakit ganon.. kung kelan kita kailangan.. kung kelan ako nging mgisa.. nawala ka.. iniwan akong ngiisa.. oo, sino lang ba ako? isa lang naman sa mga bituin sa malawak mong kalangitan.. kung sa bagay.. d naman ako importante.. isang maliit na tuldok na makulay mong buhay.. nasa maunawaan mo.. nasaktan man kita.. nasaktan din ako.. alam kong kaya mong wala ako.. pero pagkatapos nito.. mabuhay pa kaya ako?? sana.. ngangarap na balang araw.. makita mo.. importante ka sakin.. kahit na ako hindi para sayo..

Nagkamali ako..hay buhay nga naman..

FYI: My answer to yah!

2006-03-12T23:17:00.000+08:00

How men want to be please?

(21, QC)
For me its very simple.. A simple conversation would do.. going out to date... or staying at home just watching a movie.. Its all right for me..But when it comes to making love?? Ha! that for you to find out! hehehe..
It please me to know that i can please my girl.. or the girl i'm with... good food, atmosphere, music.. pwd na!

A Great Day

2006-03-11T23:37:00.000+08:00

what a day! to start off.. got beaten by a kid at NBA Live.. After that all my day was fine!
Finished 1 of the requirements sa school.. incomplete parin ako... pero ok lang.. tangap ko..
Ayos naman mock interview.. nakakapagod magantay pero sulit naman.. ang saya nga eh..

When sa autograph signing with wayne and raemar! ayos si chief! kung hindi dahil sa kanya wala akong autograph ngayon... hay! Chief salamat po talaga ng marami! Your the best!!

Masaya naman ako... Napagod pero masaya! Sana lagi na lang ganito!

For Everyone

2006-03-11T01:11:00.000+08:00

bakit ganon... kala ko d ko mararamdaman ang magisa?? sabi nila... marami kami... dito lang kami para sayo... pagabante ko.. paglingon ko... ako lang.. magisa.. kalaban buong mundo..

I showed the whole world kung sino ako.. May nadagdag man.. ako parin un... Left a little detail.. but i showed you ang totoong si Meiwin... If you think i don't deserve you... ok lang.. tangap ko.. tangap ko na kasalanan ko... tangap ko na nagkamali ako.. nasaktan kita... SORRY..

I know d mo na ako kakausapin, papasinin, or kung ano man.. ayos lang.. tangap ko..
masakit pero tangap ko... D mo naman ako kawalan eh... I'm just one...

Art of being Meiwin

2006-03-10T22:38:00.000+08:00

Q: What is happiness?
A: Happiness?? Does not exist in my vocabulary...

Q: Where can you find happiness?
A: Sino bang ngimbento ng salitang ito?? Makaimbento ng time machine ng mapatay! Siya ang ngbigay ng kalokohan sa buhay ko!!!

Q: Is there such thing as love?
A: SHIT NO! There is no such thing as love! Sadness, sorrow, pain un pwd pa! Pero love? Kalokohan!

Q: When you know that your happy?
A: PAGPATAY KA NA!

Q: Are you happy?
A: SANA PATAY NA AKO!

banged, bruisde, but still standing

2006-03-08T23:32:00.000+08:00

what a day i'm having.. banged myself during my weekly basketball game... sakit sa katawan.. pero masaya.. kahit na natalo naman! hay.. sana everyday na lang ang laro para d ganong masakit sa katawan. parang nung HS. practice every other day.. minsan araw araw.. hangang saturday.. sarap grabe.. payat pa ako nun... hehee

sino kaya ung ng post sa tagboard ko.. d ko sya kilala.. sana ngpakilala manlang.. pero alam ko babae un... So Miss Me kung sino ka man.. pwd ko po bang malaman ang name nila.. sakit po sa ulo magisip eh..

message ulet sa kanya: "Really sorry about everything.. Sana d magbago ang pagtingin mo sakin.. kung nasaktan man kita.. Sorry po! Hope you take care of yourself always! mwah!

a never ending day

2006-03-07T23:21:00.000+08:00

what a day... started with a sermon and ends with a sermon! ganda dba??!! walang katapusang pagpipilitang mali ako! hay... sino ba pwdeng magrecommend ng work, psycho ward, mental hospital, drug rehab, masukal na gubat, deserted island, or bulubundukin?? i really need to be in one of these things! need to get myself out of this freak of a world! my so called LIFE!

anyways.. i kinda miss being "Balot".. play bball all day.. come home play with the pc or ps.. hay.. sarap buhay... tawag sa gf.. tawag sa girlfriends... kulitin mga berks.. mangopya ng homework kinabukasan.. hay... happy go lucky kid.. does not worry about anything... hay.. wish got time machine para maulet lahat..

i dont regret anything.. feeling ko lang kulang pa ung oras.. well i got out of this shell.. better start living my life.. hehehe...

off topic lang po:
"i don't miss her that much.. pero nakakalungkot pala pagd kayo ngusap.. wish magkita na kami soon.. para malaman ko what is true.."

message to my friends:
"Help yah all the way.. (wag lang pera! hehe!) Will be your constant post to lean on... you have been part of my life as i was part of yours.. I can and will never take that back! love yah guys! promise.. bawi ako sa mga pagkukulang!

as the day passes by

2006-03-06T12:41:00.000+08:00

as each moment of my life withers away... i ask myself.. what have i accomplished to be proud of?? was it worth being here?? was I WORTH being loved??

lagi na lang rants ang nasa blog na to.. kelan kaya ako mkakapagsulat ng mga maliligayang posts.. hay.. wish ko lang talga na ang puso pagnabasag.. pwd pang iglue.. or parang lego na pwdeng idikit ulet.. masaya naman ako dba?? dami kong kaibigan.. pero... bakit ganon.. dami kulang.. parang imbis na going forward.. paurong ang ngyayari.. nakakainis.. gusto kong sumigaw... "WAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!" sarap siguro!

anyway.. para d namn talaga puro rants.. my friend ako.. laging problemado.. wish ko lang i could cheer her up.. masayahing bata pa naman.. kaso puro problema.. dbale i would really try my best para maging masaya saya.. supportahan ko na lang.. at kung gusto pa nya.. all the way.. ehehhe! peace everyone!

D~E~A~T~H

2006-03-05T22:48:00.000+08:00

Death Death is forever

So don't flirt with suicide

Death is painful

Stay away from knives

Death is not for lovers

So don't lie

Death is not for me

So don't even try

Death is clever

So be careful

Death is never fun

Stay away from strangers

Death is never pleasing

So don't get caught up in the hype

Death is never fair

So get use to it

Death is always occurring

So don't ignore it

Death is never what you expected

Sorry but it has to happen

Death is not for you

Please don't give up

Death is forever

Don't forget it

a hell of a day

2006-03-05T00:51:00.000+08:00

d ko alam kung ano meron... mali bang sumagot?? mali bang ipagtangol ang sarili?? o sadyang mali lang talaga ako.. buhay nga naman.. hirap tignan.. hirap intindihin...

isang buong araw.. d kami ngusap... ok naman... nakayanan ko.. pero hangang kelan?? mahirap mabuhay sa panaginip... d mo na tuloy alam kung ano ang totoo at ang panaginip.. pero sana magkatotoo lang kahit isa sa panaginip ko.. masaya na ako dun..

sana din pla.. malaman ko.. kahit patikim kung anong meron sa hinaharap. maslalo na kung ang buhay ako ay ganito kagulo. mas kinakabahan ako pagwala akong alam..

hay... sana may sumagot sa mga tanong ko.. IS WHAT I'M FEELING TRUE?? IS IT ALL A DREAM?? CAN DREAMS COME TRUE??

who is she?

2006-03-03T17:09:00.000+08:00

it was 8 pm. i was standing in front of a door, holding flowers and chocolates. I knocked. A woman answered the door. half naked. she told me to come in and wait for 5 minutes. I did what she told me... Sat on the couch and waited...

After 5 minutes this beautiful angel came out of the bathroom. dressed so well. "God!" i told myself." You lucky devil! Where did you meet this girl?!" i dont fucking remember.. but was she beautiful.. i was as still as a board. i stared at her for five minutes or so until she spoke, "Let's go?!" I nooded..

we went out. took the cab to this fancy restaurant. good food. good music.. everything was good.. but i could not stop staring at her.. she would just giggle...

at took her back at around 12 mn. she told me she had a wonderful time. and she kissed me.. i kissed back.. but she never let go... we were kissing and kissing and kissing.. i lifted her up to bed.. and made love... kissed her from the neck, to her breast, to her belly button, to her... as i was kissing.. she grabbed my hair.. and gave a small moan.. sweet.. she lifts my face and wispers.."your turn" i was confused.. but when she pushed me back.. now i got what she ment..
she kissed my ear wispering..."close your eyes" i did.. then i felt her lips run down my chest... down some more... then.. her lips was all over my... fuck! i was not able to say anything.. she just gave me the best.. before i came.. she stopped.. she said she wanted me in.. but before i could answer, she went on top.. it was i like she was fucking me.. damn! held her near me.. sucked on her nipples.. while she was riding me wildly.. she was all over me.. feeling her engulf me whole.. i was about to.. but she still held me down.. i could not to anything.. i gave her everything.. hugged me tightly(got even scratches at my back from her nails) and fell forward.. she fell asleep.. i did to..

i can't describe how it felt because no words can... after everthing was done.. i wanted to ask her name.. as i was about to.. my cellphone rang!

I answered it.. It went... "Hoy! 530 na! my practice pa tyo!! bumangon ka na!!" it was my team mate in basketball.. Fuck!! i did not even get her name!! i looked around.. the girl is nowhere to be found.. i was back in my room..

Damn! was it just a dream?! i wish it was real... i wish i could get her name.. damn!

31 Ways To Make A Girl Smile

2006-03-03T00:52:00.000+08:00

Tell her she is beautiful
Hold her hand at any moment . . . even if its just for a second.
Hug her from behind
Leave her voice messages to wake up to.
Wrestle with her :)
Don't go hang out with you ex when shes not with you, you might not relize how badly it hurts her.
If youre talking to another girl, when you're done talking, walk over and hug her and kiss her....let her know she's yours and they aren't.
Write her notes or call her just to say "hi"
Introduce her to your friends . . . as your girlfriend.
Play with her hair.
Pick her up (she loves it)
Get upset if another guy touches her and she doesn't like it
Make her laugh
Let her fall asleep in your arms.
If she's mad at you, kiss her.
If you care about her, then TELL HER
Every guy should give their girl 3 things: a stuffed animal(she'll hug it every time she goes to sleep), jewelry (she'll treasure it forever), and on of his t-shirts (she'll most likely wear it to bed) or sweatshirts sprayed with his cologne!! and flowers or something occasionally
Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you're alone.
Look her in the eyes and smile.
Hang out with her on weekends
Kiss her in the rain (girls love this)
Kiss her just for the heck of it
If your listening to music, let her listen too.
Remember her birthday and get her something,even if its simple and inexpensive, it came from YOU. it means all the world to HER.
When she gives you a present on yourbirthday, Christmas, or just whenever, take it and tell her you love it, even if you don't (it'll make her happy.)
Always call her when you say you will, it may not seem like it, but it does hurt her and makes her think you don't care so call even if you can onlyt alk for a minute. Girls don't necessarily have to have hour long conversations every night but its nice for us to hear your voice even for a quick hello.
Give her what she wants
Recognize the small things . . . they usually mean the most.
Dont hug her friends or your friends that are girls cause she'll feel left out.
Hang out with her whenever you are free and u should be free to hang with your girlfriend all the time
If u care about her...SHOW her!

nothing to say

2006-03-01T22:53:00.000+08:00

life has been great for the past weeks... when up... when down.. parang rollercoaster. Nakakasuka na exciting... Pero bakit ganon? bakit ganito ang nararamdaman ko. Masakit, nadudurog, nakakaiyak. Ganon ba yun.. o sadyang KSP lang talga ako.. dahil sa nabuhay ulet ang malaki kong EGO! d ko alam. Ayoko ko na sayang kausapin. ayoko na... Dahil masakit na sakin.. Masakit daw ang magmahal ng taong d ka mahal. Pero bakit kung kelan mo nalaman na mahal mo na siya tsaka siya mawawala. kinalimutan ka na... pinagisip ka lang at pinakilig... pinagmukhang tanga... umasa.. pero hindi ko siya masisisi.. kasalanan ko ito.. i placed myself here.. Ako lang ang makakapagpaalis sa akin rito..

malapit na ang holy week... malapit na matapos ang mga pinaghihirapan ko... sana makayanan ko pa...

why me II

2006-03-01T16:24:00.000+08:00

Hindi muna pinaniwalaan ni Melvin ang mga pinagsasabi ni Ericka. Para sa kanya, hindi sa telephone kung hindi personal dapat na makita niya kung talgang totoo nga ang mga nabangit ni Ericka. Pero gulong-gulo si lalake. Hindi niya maipaliwanag ang nararamdaman. Parang may umintig sa puso ni Melvin. Parang gusto niyang maniwala na hindi.

Melvin: Melvin, ano ka ba?! Hindi totoo un.. Niloloko ka lang. Ngbibiro lang un..
Para hindi na ka maguluhan. Iiwasan mo na lang.. Kaya mo ba?? Eh natutunan mo ng mahalin?? Paano bang gagwin... Hay...Bakit ba ngkaganon...

Tuliro, d makakain, d makatulog... at ibang mga bagay na hindi na kailangang bangitin..Ganito na si Melvin ngayon...Nguusap parin sila... pero ngaalangan na siya.. Totoo bang mahal siya ni Ericka?? at mahal na rin niya?? O isa lamang itong panaginip na dapat na magising sa katotohanan... ANO BA ANG TOTOO..

why me

2006-03-01T00:16:00.000+08:00

Bakit ako... Anong meron sakin?? I'm just a simple person with good intentions... Sino ba naman ako at pinagkakaguluhan?? D naman ako artista... d naman celebrity...

Para sa mga taong nakakaramdam ng ganito... SHIT DUDE!! swerte mo!! :D

Sabi nila, just be youself... eh kung being youself can hurt someone?? gagwin mo pa ba un?? Parang ganito yan eh...

Isang araw sa buhay ni Melvin.

Isang araw, pagising ni Melvin sa kanyang mahimbing na tulog, may tumawag sa kanya. Ang kanyang kaibigan na si Ericka. Nagusap ang dalawa.. tungkol sa buhay-buhay... hangang dumating sa punto na may nasabi si Ericka..

Ericka: Magkaibigan tayo db?
Melvin: Oo naman... bakit??
Ericka: Kasi, may ipagtatapat sana ako...
Melvin: Ano un??
Ericka: I Love You!
Melvin: Hehehe! Mahal din kita..
Ericka: D ako ngbibiro...
Melvin: Huh?! Lasing ka ba?? Nakadrugs??
Ericka: Gago! Seryoso ako!
Melvin: D ako makapaniwala! Ikaw?! Si Ericka?! Na diyosa ng kagandahan?? Magkakagusto sakin??! Isang hamak na tao lang??! Ow come on Ericka... Niloloko mo lang ata ako eh..
Ericka: Seryoso ako! D ko nga alam bakit ganito ang nararamdaman ko eh.. Basta ang alam ko mahal na kita...
Melvin: Hehehe... Ummm.. Salamat..
Ericka: D ka parin naniwala?? Ok lang namn eh... Ung masabi ko sayo ang nararamdaman ko masaya na ako..
Melvin: Umm.. D ko alam kung anong sasabihin ko... cge usap na lang tayo ulet ha.. Umm bye!

Binaba agad ni Melvin ang phone... Pinagisipan ng mabuti ang sinabi ng kaibigan...
D nawala sa isip ng lalaki ang sinabi ni babae...Totoo na ito o ng lolokohan lang...

Melvin: Si Ericka?? Mgkakagusto sakin?? Hay...

---to be continued---

~H~E~L~L~

2006-02-26T23:48:00.000+08:00

constant change can be good at times.. but in some cases.. this sucks like hell..
many people think that being someone else is cool.. other think its stupid being who your not..
but for me.. its the same... people would just judge you right away... flaw of being human.. too smart..
but hell I CARE!! judge me all you want.. if to you and the rest of the world think this of me... you can take it and stuff it up your ass still it bleeds... I'm who I am! and no one! absolutely no one can stop me for being ME!! to hell with all of you!!

Ako c Meiwin Christian T. Cristobal!! isang ordinaryong tao na may kakaibang katangian! ng iisa lang sa mundo! pagnawala ako... pagsisisihan nyo!! waaahahahaah!!

magulo ang mundo..

2006-02-26T21:13:00.000+08:00

wla lang ako mgawa... :D

magulo na ang mundo?? end of the world na yata.. ano ba meron?? letche! basta ako magpapakasaya... bahala kayo!! mgkamatayan na!!! wwwwooott!!

hurt such a lovely word...

2006-02-25T21:45:00.000+08:00

day was as fine as... HELL!! got hurt... not once, but twice!! why is it like that! mahirap ba akong intindihin?? mahirap ba akong mahalin?? mahirap ba!! ha?! sana may sumagot sakin.. sana may makunawa sakin..

took it out on the court... legs killing me... but its ok... its better than thinking...

i wish i was... hay...

another day..

2006-02-24T22:52:00.000+08:00

went to araneta to watch some ass kickin'! damn that was fun.. got some pics.. nakakapagod.. nakaktakot.. kc may mga ngrarally sa labas kanina before the show.. pero masaya naman in general ang buhay... kaso pagdating d2.. kulang na lang mamatay na talga ako... got this f*cked up headache... having major issues... pero sana makayan ko ito..

sulat na lang ako d2 ng...

WANTED:
name: any name would do
age: any age
address: anywhere
occupation: any occupation
characteristics: any would do

hay sana ganito na lang noh.. lahat ng bagay bagay may dahilan.. lahat may rason... pero kung ano man ito... dapat lang paisipan... pagmasdan..

mabuhay pa kaya ang puso na namatay sa hirap??
mabuhay pa kaya ang puso na natagal ng niloko ang sarili??
mabuhay pa kaya AKO??

what is happening

2006-02-24T00:17:00.000+08:00

sbi nga ng nanay ni Forrest Gump. "life's a box of chocolates.. you'll never know what you'll gonna get.."

bakit ganon.. alam ko naman na ang buhay ay umpredictable.. pero sana kahit minsan makalaman ko kung ano meron. para d ako ngkakaganito...

mahirap mabuhay.. maslalo na pagna hihirapan ka... pag may gusto ka na hindi pwede... pag ung buhay mo pala ay d pa natatapos... marami pang mga bagay na offered sa mundo... kaso tinangihan mo na ang lahat... dun mo na laman na mali ka pala... hay..

minsan mahal mo ang isang tao... kaso d mo alam kung mahal ka nya talaga..
nagbibiruan ba kayo or seryoso ba sya?

sabi nga ni Eminem...

And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn

Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice

Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling

And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain

Just smile back

And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn

Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice

Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling

And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain

Just smile back...

pagnamatay ako... ganito sana kayong lahat.

a day in my life

2006-02-23T19:23:00.000+08:00

for the past few months... my life a f*cked up prostitute that pee is the only time to rest... 7 days a week, 20 hours a day! damn! so tired... so sleepy...what can i do.. absolutely NOTHING!! damn i hate my life..

i wish i could see you and hold you tight... during this cold and lonely night... haaayy :((

sana makayanan ko ito.. sana magkatotoo... nanaginip lang ba ako.. o nakikipaglokohan lang ako...

sana magkatotoo lahat... sana mabago ko pa... this is my life... wish someone could save me..

Cleanning Out My Closet

2006-02-23T00:33:00.000+08:00

[Intro]
Where's my snare?
I have no snare in my headphones - there you go
Yeah.. yo, yo

[Eminem]
Have you ever been hated or discriminated against?
I have; I've been protested and demonstrated against
Picket signs for my wicked rhymes, look at the times
Sick as the mind of the motherfuckin kid that's behindall this commotion emotions run deep as ocean's explodin
Tempers flarin from parents just blow 'em off and keep goin
Not takin nothin from no one give 'em hell long as I'm breathin
Keep kickin ass in the mornin and takin names in the evenin
Leave 'em with a taste as sour as vinegar in they mouth
See they can trigger me, but they'll never figure me out
Look at me now; I bet ya probably sick of me now ain't you momma?
I'ma make you look so ridiculous now

[Chorus: Eminem]
I'm sorry momma!I never meant to hurt you!
I never meant to make you cry; but tonight I'm cleanin out my closet (one more time)
I said I'm sorry momma!
I never meant to hurt you!I never meant to make you cry; but tonightI'm cleanin out my closet

[Eminem]
Ha! I got some skeletons in my closetand I don't know if no one knows it
So before they thrown me inside my coffin and close it
I'ma expose it; I'll take you back to '73 before I ever had a multi-platinum sellin CD
I was a baby, maybe I was just a couple of months
My faggot father must have had his panties up in a bunchcause he split, I wonder if he even kissed me goodbye
No I don't on second thought I just fuckin wished he would dieI look at Hailie, and I couldn't picture leavin her side
Even if I hated Kim, I grit my teeth and I'd try to make it work with her at least for Hailie's sake
I maybe made some mistakes but I'm only human, but I'm man enough to face them today
What I did was stupid, no doubt it was dumb
But the smartest shit I did was take the bullets outta that gun
Cuz I'da killed him; shit I woulda shot Kim and them both
It's my life, I'd like to welcome y'all to "The Eminem Show"

[Chorus]

[Eminem]
Now I would never diss my own momma just to get recognition
Take a second to listen for who you think this record is dissin
But put yourself in my position; just try to envision witnessin your momma poppin prescription pills in the kitchen
Bitchin that someone's always goin throuh her purse and shit's missin
Goin through public housin systems, victim of Munchausen's Syndrome
My whole life I was made to believe I was sick when I wasn't'til I grew up, now I blew up, it makes you sick to ya stomach doesn't it? Wasn't it the reason you made that CD for me Ma?
So you could try to justify the way you treated me Ma?
But guess what? You're gettin older now and it's cold when your lonely
And Nathan's growin up so quick he's gonna know that your phony
And Hailie's gettin so big now; you should see her, she's beautiful
But you'll never see her - she won't even be at your funeral!
See what hurts me the most is you won't admit you was wrong
Bitch do your song - keep tellin yourself that you was a mom!
But how dare you try to take what you didn't help me to get
You selfish bitch; I hope you fuckin burn in hell for this shit
Remember when Ronnie died and you said you wished it was me?
Well guess what, I +AM+ dead - dead to you as can be!

[Chorus] - repeat 2X

In an Egg Shell

**shit happens**

**Updated thoughts**

**from gaget**

**sad / happy day**

** PORNSTAR NAME**

**Will I Know?**

**FYI: My answer to yah!**

**A Great Day**

**For Everyone**

**Art of being Meiwin**

**banged, bruisde, but still standing**

**a never ending day**

**as the day passes by**

**D~E~A~T~H**

**a hell of a day**

**who is she?**

**31 Ways To Make A Girl Smile**

**nothing to say**

**why me II**

**why me**

**~H~E~L~L~**

**magulo ang mundo..**

**hurt such a lovely word...**

**another day..**

**what is happening**